I typically aim for two posts a week. Last week, I had three. This week, unless I do one tomorrow, I will only have one. I could list a dozen excuses for it, but I won’t.
I’ll offer you this instead:
I resisted writing this post. I didn’t want to be one to say it’s okay to be down in the dumps. It’s okay to have days where you don’t feel creative and can’t force it no matter what you do. It’s okay to have days where you just want to hide from the world and ignore everyone.
I didn’t want to say it not because it’s not true. Every last word of that paragraph above is the truth.
I didn’t want to say it because you see it and hear it in so many other places. But, the last couple weeks, I’ve felt it. For the most part, I’ve pushed through, but some days I didn’t.
That’s also why I’ve resisted this post. I didn’t want to say all of the above is okay because I’ve been there. I am there. I’m trying to get past it.
One of our dogs died. He had cancer.
We’ve had some family stuff going on.
I’ve had some medical stuff going on.
I’ve let myself feel the feelings. I have felt sad, frustrated, aggravated, and mad. I’ve still written, edited, posted, and crocheted. On the days where I didn’t want to do anything, I still crocheted.
I walked around and looked at exhibits at the county fair, thinking that would give me some ideas and motivation back. I walked around Hobby Lobby for the same reasons.
Did it help?
Yes and no.
I’m getting back to it. I edited another chapter of RealmWalker: New Beginnings tonight. I did what I do when I really need to get to work. I turned on some music without lyrics, pet Gabby (another dog, she’s a shih-tzu), and got to work.
It feels good to be getting back in the swing of things. More importantly, it reminded me that even though I didn’t want to write this post, I really should. Just because we see messages like this in other places doesn’t mean we shouldn’t share our own.
The most important thing is to take care of yourself.